Love eh :)

Ok so i said i'd tell you all about me and my gf. I can't sleep due to lack of nicotine and i'm starting to feel the withdrawl so ill take my mind off it by rambling to you guys :D Well just a small note on current events, we are no longer a "couple". I won't start blaming or writing about who did what but i will do as i said and write about how things did happen :)

We first met on facebook roughly in the middle of December 2008, Kate was at her parents for Christmas having been at uni for almost 6 months and had split up with her previous boyfriend 8months ago. Anywho, we met on a facebook app called speed date, i only went on it because i was bored and was just flicking through profiles thinking how bored i was when i almost stumbled past Kates profile, infact i did skip past it for a second and almost carried on but i did catch a glimpse of her profile pic as i was going past. She was wearing an amazing rainbow colored hat that caught my eye and i just had to head back to look more. I spent a good 10 minutes reading her profile and i remember thinking at the time how strange it was that we had SOO many things in common, i sent her a message and left it at that. A day or so later i was just doing "the usual" rounds checking emails etc when i noticed i had an email from speed date telling me "amberspider" had sent me a message, my heart skipped a beat. I logged onto facebook as quick as i could and so it was that me and Kate started talking :)

We spoke everyday bar 1 for 4 weeks and it was getting to that inevitable point 2 people who have so much in common get to where you just "HAVE" to meet and see if this person is too good to be true or not. So we spent a week or two deciding how we would do it and whether i should sleep over or not (The journey from my place to hers took about an hour and a half) etc and on the 17th January 2009 we finally met. I left as on time as i could that day so that i wouldn't catch kate by surprise and was so excited for the entire journey! When i got to leyton station i waited outside like we had agreed (so i didnt get lost trying to find her flat) i smoke 2 or 3 cigarettes nervously and tried to wait patiently for her to arrive. I kept thinking, maybe she lost her nerve at the last minute or maybe she was just messing with me, but just as i was kicking myself for thinking that i saw the rainbow hat above the crowd. We met and had that kind of nervous hug you have where you already feel close to the other person but have never been close physically before. We walked to her flat and she made me a cup of tea and i met her flatmate who was ill at the time and her kitty which i think i will always insist had the most likable personality of any cat i have ever met before :)

After that first day things just fell into place. From that day to now we have only spent 9 or so nights apart. Increasingly it turnt out though that we weren't as compatible as we originally thought, but i said i wouldn't get into that and it would be mean to in public so i will leave you with this.

You don't ever truly know what kind of person your partner is going to be until you risk it all, your heart, your life, your sanity, your trust.

Sorry for rambling again :) Once i get going i can't stop >.< xxx